hard / Friday, August 29, 2008
Missing someone is hard.
It's even harder when you are pretending not to miss that someone.
Shit.
I miss you.
Yet
I am trying not to.
Damn.
Come back to me
/this is the only thing that i fear.
8:41 PM
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she's just the girl i'm looking for / Tuesday, August 26, 2008
wee today send my darling off to china
automatically woke up in the middle of the night to go airport
guess it must have been my heart doing all those stuff.
My parents knew about us.
And all of them wanted me to work hard so i can be compatiable with you.
Damn even my parents liked you. It seems like i'm gonna lose my place.
=D did u found all the presents that i gave u?
Weee missing you
/this is the only thing that i fear.
6:53 AM
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point break / Sunday, August 24, 2008
i dunno why, it seems i am a selfish retarded asshole who just wont give a rest till i get something.
i always pressure you why cnt u do this why cnt u do that.
i tend to be over sensitive eventhough i said i understand u.
fucked.
everytime i quarrel with u, my heart torn into pieces. i hate myself for loving so. but i cnt change the fact. the fact of you couldn't able to meet my demands. but at the same time i'm contradicting myself, i told u not to rebel your mum.
DAMNED.
our relationship has reach to a pt where emoing doesn't help. shutting urself from the world from me isn't going to help.
WACK me tell me i'm selfish
SCOLD me tell me i'm all u ever wanted
YELL at me tell me that what i wanted was 2 hard for you and i should understand
SLAP me tell me that i'm behaving like a bitch in this kind of situation where i keep ask ask ask ask ask ask when i know u didn't wan to say
how i wish that would be the way we communicate.
be yourself
i know ur unglam
i know ur noisy
i know ur irritating
SHOW me in the face
i promise i nvr leave you
yet u doubted me in some way or another
i dun even feel my effort wasted, i just feel fucked. by what ? i dunno
i'm not even comparing
i wan a simple dinner
i wan a simple date
i wan a simple cinema movie date
i wan a simple sharing session with u
i wan so many so many simple things that many pple are taking a lifetime searching their partner to do with them.
i am willing to be like my brother to sacrifice for you.
u always think i'm unhappy.
do u know i'm so despising myself?
i did put myself in your shoe.
i did and i am still doing it.
ur factors stopping you. i know i understand.
but why? why? why cnt we just SKIP LESSONS for 1 day! and just hold the hand and walk in whatever park we find whatever road we cross whatever food we eat. even taking 154 till the end of its terminal would be so sweet.
i'm despising myself WHY WHY WHY i cnt help u improve the situation ur in
ur mum
ur sis
ur dad
ur bro
ur frens
ur exams
am i helping? no
i am adding burden.
i am such a big burden that make you immobilize.
all your promises to open up.
yup once in a blue moon.
am i gaining sympathy? no
i wan to let u know, being silent wont be a good thing.
i am not a monster
if someone u love, yet u cnt open up to them, i dunno what i can do.
1 joke when being repeated 2-3 times, it gets retarded.
yet i have to be the one who keep telling them cause u nvr talked.
all the obstacle ahead, i promised u i will overcome with u
i had say it over and over again.
but it time for u to WALK with me
the journey is ours
the love is ours
i'm yours
you're mine
make the first step
i cnt go on alone
your missing me, i dunno how much i have no idea but i know it cnt be lesser than mine. yours might be greater. but i believe we can overcome all sort of stuff.
tears filled up my eyes,
alone in the night, the feelings is so intense i feel like killing myself. so i can just see you now.
my hearts yearn for no one but u.
damned i typed too much
/this is the only thing that i fear.
12:16 PM
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thoughts of the night / Monday, August 18, 2008
SHAKEN!
Indeed
Can't be BOTHERED
No Doubt!
FUCKED UP
yea man.....................................................
come to think,am i really happy? Are u content with what you have? It seems not. I am a greedy man. I can't get enough of you.But, where was you? where?
I'm lost
Lost in following your steps
Lost in believing you
Lost in the trail of becoming your MR perfect
shit, it's disheartening to know sometimes when you watch others and felt jealousy not because they are truly in love of each other. But the committment they fork out to maintain the relationship. Me? Trying my best. I don't know what right or wrong. I just wan the night to be darker each day, cause when it is the darkest time of our day, it meant dawn is not far away.
Persevere through the night, because the darkest time of man's hour, it the beginning of new dawn.
Damned
/this is the only thing that i fear.
7:46 AM
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i am bored / Sunday, August 17, 2008
thinking, i got a high chance of failing biochem. i got a high chance of failing biostats.
i got a high chance of dropping out of NP
how?
my worries is back to haunt me.
i just cnt study
i dun feel like
guess when i'm not with u, all those insecurities came back
Damn
why i made those promises to you
why i promise i won't leave
Damn
MUG
Damn
i cnt
life without you is miserable
but
life without me sure sounds fun
DAMNED
/this is the only thing that i fear.
10:23 AM
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i dunnoy why why why why why why why!! i cnt study whenever i wanted to.
tv drama, movies, games, psp etc etc etc etc
i cnt cnt cnt cnt cnt cnt cnt cnt cnt cnt cnt cnt cnt cnt cnt CONCENTRATE DAMN!
i think is becuz my mind is full of u?
Don't Know.
Didn't know u will be so happy not to sms me
heeeeee
maybe just maybe i will surprise u with a mocha frappchino tmr
/this is the only thing that i fear.
10:17 AM
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